Come October: Week 23

It's 23 weeks today. That makes 23 weeks that a human being has been growing inside of me. 23 weeks that things have been stretching and shifting and cramping and paining. 23 weeks of realizing how completely unprepared I am, yet being so impatient to know the sex and what this little person looks like and whether it's going to be healthy, of being so ready to cuddle and love and care. 23 weeks of the most bittersweet, terrifying, wonderful feelings I've ever known.

Also, what? It makes about 17 weeks more to go with the same (and even more) to come.

And it makes one week until I receive my second ultrasound, the first one the parents are going to get to come to, the one where we (hopefully) find out whether the baby is a girl or a boy. The Big One. This means a lot to me, and I'm so impatient.

Ican'twaitIcan'twaitIcan'twaitIcan'twait! Dramatic inhale. Ican'twaitIcan'twaitIcan'twait.

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I hope it all goes right. I hope that I don't have a stubborn baby, but I wouldn't actually be shocked if I did. I'm the mother after all, and Daniel being the father? Magnified by 547. I swear.

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I'm just so bad at surprises! There are times I can't even wait until I've finished a book to find out the ending or a specific part of whatever. Usually because I've made a prediction and I want to know if I'm right and Google is right there, taunting me all like, "I know it and you don't!"

Damn it, Google, I can't stand not knowing!

Unfortunately, I can't Google my baby's gender. Or maybe I can, but I don't think it would actually help me much. So for now I'm just going to go completely and absolutely crazy with anticipation, and if I make it through, I'll make sure to update everyone else.

The ultrasound is next Thursday, so I'll be due for my 24 week post the same day. I'll probably just wait until the afternoon to write it so that I have something to say because I'm going to be bursting with the need to tell everyone who will listen because it hurts to keep excitement inside. You know what I'm saying. And also because this is going to be one of the best parts of the pregnancy, so it might as well be part of the pregnancy post.

Anyway, I hope you all have a great week! I'm just going to go sit over here and quietly agonize over how slowly it's passing.